It’s been awhile since I’ve even had a desire to write. Even though writing has been a huge outlet for me for the last 7 years, I recently haven’t been able to write a single word. If you choose to express your thoughts this way instead of using your voice in some way, then you know the feeling when you feel your thoughts flow through your fingertips and magically appear onto your computer screen. It can feel that good — even if no one reads them.
My life has been pretty crazy lately. I know, you’re thinking that’s life today. However, I don’t think my spirits have dipped this low, ever. They are finally on the upswing, but I recently walked in a valley I’ve never experienced before. Because my husband is a minister — fairly new to our church, I didn’t know if I should talk about it, so I’ve pretty much kept it to myself…and to my husband. Until now.
We never know what life is going to throw at us, but one thing I know is this: we need to be prepared because those hard times that we think will never touch our life — can happen. Things you never dream of doing or avoiding sometimes do happen. That’s when the hard questions come.
One question I kept hearing being whispered in my ear — over and over – was this: How do I know God still loves me? (I know John 3:16, but I’m talking about later on – after we have accepted Jesus, asked for forgiveness, been baptized, and lived a life of serving Him….and then we mess up or we’re experiencing a crisis.)
Out of curiosity, I turned to my school-aged Sunday School class and asked what they would say if someone asked that question after a school shooting, for example. Every one shrugged their shoulders as if to say – I don’t know the answer.
As I left my classroom, I realized that so many of us are so unprepared. What a great need there is for all of us!
Still searching for an answer, I recently read something on a devotional on YouVersion that provided something, at least. It comes from ADVENT: THE JOURNEY TO CHRISTMAS
The Scripture reference is found in Luke 2:18. “Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart.“
The devotion encourages us to “turn to the supply we’ve saved to sustain us when we’re in need. Knowing the prophecies about the Messiah’s sacrifice, Mary would have been aware that her precious child would one day experience incredible suffering. When she stood at the foot of the cross as her Son was crucified, Mary must have had to rehearse every memory she had of God’s faithfulness so she could continue believing in the promise of Jesus’ resurrection. In her greatest moment of pain, she had a collection of proof that God would do what He promised.”
It doesn’t matter if you’re presently living on the mountaintop, do yourself a favor and check your reserve. What are you storing up in your heart? Friend, there will come a day when you will need to tap into that reserve so that you won’t forget His promises and how deeply our Savior loves you.
A perfect way to celebrate His birth, by storing His love and promises in your heart so that they can be unwrapped at the proper time.